today's random theme is...

I lost my way
Washed out to sea
I'm lost at sea
Come back to me
Come back to me
Don't bother me

...as radiohead so nicely put it

i'm quite interested in death…..in a kind of morbid way….that’s not really true, but for the fifth morning in a row i.. woke up in the middle of a scene from battle royale…everyone against everyone, it might sound amusing now, but it’s not, to much nonsense going on in my head I have no idea why this is happening because it has been years since i saw that movie, but after i wake up, i am afraid to sleep again, sort of useless i know, but i have not had nightmares this over and over again since olaf palme was murdered, and i saw the chalk outline in the street…and so yeah, BUT …..when i woke i had all these thoughts about life, death, religion….and then three major religions, one holy city…..couldn't they have just spread it out a bit? "you have aqaba, we'll have moscow, you can have dover…..and then about genghis khan….did you know genghis khan was the first leader to declare that all religions were equal? hey, he didn't care who you worshiped, he'd eat you anyway!...and if that wasn’t enough for the last 16 hours i have had the same six songs on my wmp list…..and that’s sort of scary…so yeah, …but i did have a rather fancy idea last night, what if there was a shuffle function on the dvd remote control…..no i mean it…except for the movies where it is obvious the point to mess up the scenes a little, think if one could do it to every movie???? i knows you will like it….so yeah, this night was tedious, besides the redemptions offered by the pizza, i walked to east three times to let some people in, not fun, the internet did not work neither did cp, and believe me i tried all of the computers here, so i felt so very, very alone…..and i was going to watch a movie but i could not keep my eyes open, nothing defies gravity, especially my eyes, and so i think the point was that i miss you all so much.....(i don't know why i posted this..liz)